Hope Deferred: Part Two

July 11, 2008

I closed Part One with Proverbs 13:12.  I think we have all had those moments in life where what we hope for is missing in our lives.  It does make the heart sick. 

Twenty years ago, someone at my church, not a leader, laid hands on me.  He had a “word” that I would be healed by my next doctor’s appointment.  That presented a bit of a quandry as I did not have a doctor’s appointment scheduled.  Hmm?  What to do?   Was there a special time to schedule?  Yes, I really did think about that, as naive as that sounds now. 

 Well, I made the appointment.  But, somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew.  I just wanted to hope.

The day of the appointment, my blood sugar shot to 300.  Just in case I was wondering….

I cried all the way to the doctor’s office. 

Then, I made a decision about what to do with my “deferred hope” and heart sickness.  I think it was one of the most important decisions I’ve ever made.  I decided to stop putting my life on hold while I focused on healing.  I decided that I would serve God with or without a healing.  That what he had in my life was too important to focus on diabetes as the defining part of my life. 

I started a mini-prison ministry the next day in my local jail.  I haven’t looked back.  At least not until recently. 

I guess that I got tired.  Going to Lakeland is really out of character for me.  I don’t regret it.  It was the right thing to do.  It was focusing on healing that was wrong.  Fortunately, I had the good sense/inspiration to pray for spiritual renewal as well.  I have to tell you, the spiritual renewal I prayed for there is coming in a very different way than I expected.  VERY DIFFERENT!

So now what is left to me is to renew that twenty-year-old vow.  I will serve him healed or unhealed.  I’m there.  It’s easier the second time.  I understand more now and know that I can’t worship at the altar of healing.  It’s not wrong to want to be healed, but it takes my eyes off God to focus on it. 

We all worship at different altars at times.  Do you, like me, see an altar in your life?  One that doesn’t focus on Christ?

Daniel 3: 16-18

Shadrach, Meschach, and Abednego answered and said unto the king, O Nebuchadnezzar, we are not careful to answer thee in this matter.  If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us from thine hand, O king.  But, if not, be it known to thee, O king, that we will not serve thy gods, nor worship the golden image which thou hast set up.

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2 Responses to “Hope Deferred: Part Two”

  1. Dusty Says:

    You are right. Focusing on our healing…or whatever mess is going on with us takes our eyes off of Him. But, I also believe that the enemy wants us to focus….not on our healing, but on our pain. Then, we are unable to do the things God has called us to do – love on our spouse the way we should, enjoy our children, serve His people, etc, etc. So, because our enemy seeks to destroy, I have to remind myself to walk in that healing. It’s hard. It’s frustrating. It’s a conscious attitude.

  2. Daniel Says:

    Philippians 4:4-7
    Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

    1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
    Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

    Our circumstances often dictate how much we worship or trust God. May it always be an encouragement to you to know that no matter what comes or doesn’t if you are God’s child He works all things for your good…and His glory 🙂
    If Christ has saved us, then of all things, the most important is made right, our broken relationship to God.

    Romans 5:8-11
    -but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since, therefore, we hae now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. For in while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconclied, shall we be saved by his life. More than that, we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have nor received reconciliation.

    And if the most important thing in the universe is made right, then we can rejoice in all circumstances as Paul did.

    I enjoyed reading this…may these Scriptures help keep focus on the right altar…I know it’s easy to stray.


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